One of the reasons I have had difficulty trusting God in times past is not that He is any less powerful, or that He loves me less or that He doesn’t have my good at heart; but that in His sovereignty, He allows certain things to happen, certain things against our will, wrapped with difficulty, pain, discomfort, disappointment, rejection, or some other “gift” I’d rather have Him let pass over me, if He could, or if I had a say. This doctrine/theory/mindset has been birthed from Scriptures read and preachers heard.
In that moment of waiting for an answer from God, the battle, what seems to cause fear is this: “Will God prove Himself powerful or victorious or faithful in this matter, or will this be one of His silent moments, where He just allows things to happen?” This battle has been my main hindrance to trusting God sometimes. Not that He’s unable, but what will His will be? Is there an answer or a solution to this dilemma, this thing that causes a hindrance to trusting?
-Bee
